Near the end of my 400mg doxy dose (even for me that’s a heavy dose, so you know I must be feeling really, really, bad if I’m doing that…)

but near the end of the infusion (it’s a 4 hour infusion),

I had that bubble popping feeling again, like little balloons of liquid popping inside my body.

The location is mostly in the middle or upper near my back side, inside my body.

(When I’ve had them in years past, they were more in my middle abdominal area, or in my lower rib cage area, more near the front, usually right side of my body.)

Maybe I’m having the popping again, because I just started back on the IV doxy after being on Vanco for two weeks? I don’t know if I had the popping with the very first dose of Doxy yesterday, because I slept through the dose and hours afterwards, but I know for sure I had it tonight–

What do you think this popping could be?

I can’t find anything like this online, and the only thing I think they could be related to, is the CT scan I had in spring 2011 (was it then?) showing little bit of fluid, back when I also had popping sensations. I can’t remember exactly when it was. I had them in the fall of 2005, soon after meeting you. I remember talking with you about it in your office (getting worried I didn’t want to scare you off too 🙂

Over the years, this popping only come during times I’m feeling the most crappy of crappiest. I think they may be a sign of whatever I’m doing is working (or at least I hope that’s what it means).

I think I am going to go and try to find a good Chinese herbalist…I really need to get off these antibiotics, badly….I know the Ig will eventually get me there, but I want to live to see that point. I’m becoming so resistant, I’m getting bigger, badder problems…

I know there is an ‘endgame’ to what is going on with me–a super resistant infection that kills me–so I have to try and get the balance in my body in order before that day comes–

The next time I’m feeling closer to normal, I *promise* I’m going to be super super diligent about taking my oral antibiotics. I don’t want to go down this pathway anymore.

I’m really scared right now. Really scared.