Without a doubt I know I’m septic right now. It’s been brewing for the last week, but today has just been downright awful.

My blood pressure has dipped lower than this over the years, but it’s headed downhill down. The worse is how I feel–the best way to describe it, is that I feel like suddenly the blood in my veins is becoming too thick, like a lead sludge, weighing me down.

I feel like I’m being sucked into the ground…

The good news is that I was able to access my port…it flushed…it actually flushed okay. Not great, but good enough I should be able to drip medicine without a pump.

I can’t wait any longer…I just need some Benadryl, then I need to start on some IV antibiotics…I’m going to hold on, and wait until morning. Given how sick I am, I may have some complications, and I need to be prepared to go the ER…I need to hold on for a few more hours…start first thing tomorrow…

If I was in Los Angeles, id be in the emergency right now. I’m too afraid to go here in Ottawa. I’m too afraid. If the Vanco I have in my emergency supply doesn’t work, then I’ll probably end up in the ER by the end of tomorrow…