I know something is horribly wrong. I can feel it.

Yesterday’s pain was just the tip of the iceberg. I’ve known for a long time there’s something wrong in my lower abdomen, and I’m not sure why I’ve been waiting for a doctor to confirm it…I’m smarter than that. I know better. Never wait for a doctor to confirm what you already know. Look for a doctor for guidance, but doctors are people too and people make mistakes. All those ‘tests’ they have are saturated with limitations, and the good doctors will tell you that, especially in early stages. And sometimes doctors just get it wrong. It’s rarely medical malpractice. It’s just human nature.

Have you looked at an ultrasound image? It looks like TV snow from the 1970s. It’s amazing they can see anything in it.

After waking up today (and being grateful to still be alive after yesterday), I’m now being super strict about everything I put into my body…if I do end up having Cancer, I’m going to get super stricter, but I’m headed to 90% of the way there.

Today:

Lunch

Strawberry and Banana smoothie
* nicely ripe bananas (they’re always the yummiest right before they go bad, and they’re the healthiest) * frozen strawberries
* handle of blueberries (I only had ten left)
* apricot Greek yogurt
* Grape seed oil
* raw honey
* cold water

Dinner

Potato and Rosemary soup

(This is what I mean about 90% of the way there–if I actually do find out I’m right and I do have Cancer, I would cut potatoes out too)

* potatoes, some blended into a purée and some cut into pieces * frozen broccoli
* frozen spinach
* garlic
* chicken stock (I went with the powder kind, cuz it’s cheaper) * water
* dried rosemary

I didn’t have an onion, otherwise it would have gone in there too, but I actually hate the taste of onion and I liked the soup today more than normal…probably not a coincidence.

I haven’t put a single other thing into my body, except a glass of a water. No crackers, no cookies, nothing.

My plan is for the next few weeks, is to make a smoothie every day for lunch (I never eat breakfast), then a different soup every night for dinner. If I really crave something solid, then I’ll eat a fruit or some carrots.

I’m going to add freshly ground flax seed and some flax seed oil into my smoothie, but I just haven’t gotten around to buying it yet.

I also bought some of the Flor Essence tea, but it hasn’t arrive yet. It should be here by the middle of next week. I want to get one of those indoor tent saunas too, but I have to save up for it. I think they’re $200.

My lower abdomen is still hurting, though not as bad as yesterday, but the overwhelming fatigue I’ve developed the last few weeks is still here. I actually thought I was becoming sceptic at first, it felt similar, but my blood pressure has been normal for the most part, so it’s clearly a new symptom for me.

At least the pain has subsided a little…yesterday I actually wondered if I was going to die the pain was so bad.

It’s time to turn everything around…it might be too little too late, but I have to try.