Dr. Sherman…saving my life. Again.

My mouth is swollen around the hard bump, where the incision was made to cut out the inflamed salivary gland.

I’m so weak and tired I can’t get out of bed. When I mean I can’t get out of bed, I mean I was supposed to go to the bank today to convert my rent check into a cashier’s check and couldn’t do it.

With the swelling in my mouth, and the weakness, I know what’s happening…I have an infection in my mouth I just can’t fight off.

These are my options. Since I’m not going to have an elevated wcb or a fever (the classic markers a doctor who doesn’t know me looks for to confirm an infection), I can either,

A) wait until I’m septic, and get a positive blood culture. (5-7 more days?) and of course, becoming septic has its own host of problems…not an easy route.

or

B) jump on IV Vanco now, and evert a crisis before it gets even worse.

The only way option B is even an option, is if a doctor knows me *extremely* well…

I’m very lucky to both Dr. Sherman and Grampa Joe, the man who is making all of this possible by making sure I have insurance…

I actually considered today, for a moment, just allowing this one to take me over, and slipping away…I’m getting tired of this…I’m getting tired of fighting to save my life…it’s scary, it’s humiliating, it’s expensive…

And then I looked at David, and I thought it’s not fair to him for me to give up..yes, it’s hard, yes it’s absolutely miserable,

but I have to keep fighting…

About hopeforanswers

Some kind of rare immune deficiency, yet to be determined. A lifetime of infections without an elevated white cell blood or fever. Very grateful to be alive, very thankful for the friends who’ve supported me and for access to literally millions of dollars worth of medical care. I’m not the bubble child, I’m somewhere in between.
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