I’ve never been on this many antibiotics at the same time, ever, in my life.

This mouth infection has been that bad.

It seems like whenever I start to get a little bit better, I start going back downhill again…it’s been that awful. My doctors reassure me that I’m going to live through it (I have my doubts), but it’s going to take six months before I’m really back on my feet again…

And that’s six months of staying on top of all of these medications. Just getting through the day is a full time job, I don’t have time to think about much else. I’m doing two different IV antibiotics, 2 different oral antibiotics, and then Wellbutrin (whenever I remember to take it), so that’s 12 different times a day to take a medication (12 includes the Wellbutrin, though I usually through that in with something else, so it’s 11 times a day I’m doing a medication.)

As bad as I feel (and this week has been bad–hence the change up in my medications), I keep telling myself I’m going to make it…it’s just a rough patch…

Healthy people don’t know what this is like, to have to remember so many medications… (Two are twice, one is 3 times a day, one is 4 times a day, and I never like to take two different kinds at once, so it makes spacing them out even more of a headache–)

I want to live though…I want to make it through this…